This was an enjoyable read! I often tell myself "if it's meant for me, I'll have it" and this brings me peace, but it doesn't mean I don't want for things. Nice to know of Alice Walker's familiar words.
This was truth as a gift of light for me today! Your musings reflect some of my own. I tend to doubt so much about my real self, that inner child hiding under the covers hoping no one will rip my facade away. This is refreshing to read because it lets me know that I am not alone in my quicksand and that survivors exist out in these streets!
I am sitting here giggling because I purposefully *never* quote that first part. lolololol. "I am not desperate.." Lemme stop you right there. Chile I am desperate about a lot. And thank you for lifting up how that part isn't your jam and why it isn't. This was thoughtful and nuanced. I have experienced the "looking for me" part but typically in ways that I can't quite articulate. For example people have come in my life in ways that I didn't ask for but have blessed it beyond belief. I randomly met Rose online in 2020 on that hellscape called Twitter. Some of my best friends are from there now also. I don't think I would've ever done a Masters or a PhD without social media and that's wild. And. I experience the gap. the lack. the areas I've needed things to search for me and here I am without them.
You’re so right. Whew it probably is the romantic in me that believes it also. I also know that it can’t be as simple as fate is seeking me because when I look at my life there has been a whole lot of hell
This was an enjoyable read! I often tell myself "if it's meant for me, I'll have it" and this brings me peace, but it doesn't mean I don't want for things. Nice to know of Alice Walker's familiar words.
Asé. Love that.
I believe DREAMS are meant to be lived in. That's my approach to life. Not the soggy, messy ones, the other ones! BTW you write with a gift!
You honor me. Thank you so much for reading and responding. It truly is everything.
This was truth as a gift of light for me today! Your musings reflect some of my own. I tend to doubt so much about my real self, that inner child hiding under the covers hoping no one will rip my facade away. This is refreshing to read because it lets me know that I am not alone in my quicksand and that survivors exist out in these streets!
Jabari this touched me. Thank you so much. “That inner child hiding under the covers..” felt.
I am sitting here giggling because I purposefully *never* quote that first part. lolololol. "I am not desperate.." Lemme stop you right there. Chile I am desperate about a lot. And thank you for lifting up how that part isn't your jam and why it isn't. This was thoughtful and nuanced. I have experienced the "looking for me" part but typically in ways that I can't quite articulate. For example people have come in my life in ways that I didn't ask for but have blessed it beyond belief. I randomly met Rose online in 2020 on that hellscape called Twitter. Some of my best friends are from there now also. I don't think I would've ever done a Masters or a PhD without social media and that's wild. And. I experience the gap. the lack. the areas I've needed things to search for me and here I am without them.
The hopeless romantic in me loves the idea of fate seeking me. Thank you so much for reading bro !
You’ve been major inspiration for me as well. Your school journey and your vulnerability about it helped me be honest about returning to school.
Appreciate you again Doc!
You’re so right. Whew it probably is the romantic in me that believes it also. I also know that it can’t be as simple as fate is seeking me because when I look at my life there has been a whole lot of hell
Also I’m still so happy about you going back to school. You can do it